... today went lavandar for competition.. was hoping n thinkin if i could WIN.. ya.. but den i LOST.. i worried for weeks.. prepared since feb.. i felt so horrified.. it is oni todae which i felt prepared, yet.. cos of some reasons.. i lost d games.. mayb i can win back in d nxt rnd.. hoping.. i tink may b on 1 of d thursdays..
i rmbed d past when i started to learn chess.. ya.. i challenge d juniors n sae losers mus do punishments.. winners.. no rewards though.. but quite rewarding to haf tis senior already..
sometimes i ponder if it is worth so much spending so much time over it.. but d results attracted mi.. it may affect my future.. i nid gd results.. my studying motivation cos it may lead to a gd testimonial.. my life motivation cos it brings mi to a gd uni.. which conts to push me on.. which pull mi up when i fall.. which bring mi life when i m dying.. which brings mi everything.. mayb passion is impt....
